There are things that we tell ourselves that should have been done. There are things we agree that are better left in the past, things that needed to be said, things that need to be done, and conversely things that really didn't need to be said, and things that really didn't need to be done. It's rather funny thing regret, funny and ironic. Someone could be completely happy with the way thins are and regret something, but doesn't that mean that they aren't happy with the way things are. Personally I would wish I could take back the last like 6 months and replay them, but there are several people I have met and connected to that I wouldn't never would have if I changed things, for one thing, there is someone I really love now that I would never have met. However conversely, I would never would have stopped talking to people I really care about people like Londynn.
I was lying on my bed, playing World of War Craft, back when my wow addiction was full tilt. We were running a dungeon and I was the primary healer. I ways playing my awesome undead priest of doom, when the phone rang, I answered it and it was this awesome girl named Londynn. I loved her, I still do always will, she's one of my closest friends, and I feel like I can trust her with anything, we talk for a while about the most random shit ever. I tell her how I am she tells me how she is, we be all flirty, it doesn't mean anything its just fun. It was the kind conversation you can see yourself having every single day of your life. I get back on my computer still on the phone realizing oh shit. We are on a raid and my guild is very impatient with me. I tell them I am talking to Londynn. Morgan's response is, Nick you are never aloud to spell again. I laughing tell him that I was talking about a person. A very dear friend of mine…
I never wrote about Londynn before because, I don't know why. She's always been a very important figure in my life. Harassing me this way or that, we are fixing things right now; things got a little broken between us. However everything gets a little broken. You know if I had any sense in me I would have called her months ago and fixed things right up front. However the last time we talked I was afraid, she has this boyfriend and well I felt unwanted, and I got hurt. We didn't talk for a while after that for god knows what reason. She represents something to me, a side of me a part of me. She knows me very well. This is just a very short entry today. One of my friends is in the hospital, he is in a coma, I ask for all your prayers go out to him and his wife. Thank you
Godspeed man
